Your crime has brought shame to your world. This is what you do to buy back your honor. Honor, more precious than life? I don’t think so.
If he starts telling you to do things, especially if these things are destructive to you or others, get a second opinion.
If you look at it, does that bring it alive? No, it’s already alive. Wishing for you to look.
Follow the path that takes you to Madonna, that makes you Madonna. That path.