Dec 062016
 

“Evil was defined as the use of power to destroy the spiritual growth of others for the purpose of defending and preserving the integrity of their own sick selves.”

M. Scott Peck from People of the Lie

The emergency did not begin at the election.
It’s death at the bottom of the lake. Rejection and unmet needs.
We eat ourselves alive from the moment we learn to share.
It’s natural. And it’s okay.
We can’t live forever. Something has to kill us.
We take care of it ourselves.
Lentement. Slowly.

It’s not about being crazy, of course. It’s about a lack of conversation.
It’s about using language that people we care about don’t understand.
And when someone doesn’t treat you like a person, you die a little death.
Even a stranger.
Especially a stranger.

Me? I express a need, and then I turn around and crush myself for having it.
This is a learned behavior.

To see in Spanish is Ver. I see you. Te veo.
Estás en la última fila de la foto.

Feb 242012
 

“Orlan has recounted the circumstances surrounding her first surgical operation on numerous occasions; one could say that it has become part of her ever growing mythology. The story goes something as follows: during a 1978 performance symposium in which she was scheduled to speak, Orlan suddenly became ill. Instead of focusing completely on her physical pain and discomfort, Orlan reflected on the possibilities her medical crisis offered. As she was being rushed to a hospital, Orlan asked that a camera crew accompany her to the emergency room and document what was to be emergency surgery for an extra-uterine (ectopic) pregnancy. Orlan had the idea that a videotape of the event could be shown to fill the gap in the symposium program created by her unexpected absence.”

Tanya Augsburg, from her essay in the collection The Ends of Performance

 

 

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